First Post

 

me (pictured right)

I'm not quite sure what I am creating, except that I absolutely have to begin. If I want to start writing at all I must start at all costs. I remember a quote I read once which has stuck with me. 

"Perfectionism is the voice of the oppressor, the enemy of the people. It will keep you cramped and insane your whole life, and it is the main obstacle between you and a shitty first draft. I think perfectionism is based on the obsessive belief that if you run carefully enough, hitting each stepping-stone just right, you won't have to die. The truth is that you will die anyway and that a lot of people who aren't even looking at their feet are going to do a whole lot better than you, and have a lot more fun while they're doing it." Anne Lammott

I don't believe I ever wanted to be 'perfect' in my life - but I do believe that somewhere along the way I realised I did not want to fail. 

I remember having much more ambition as a kid, dared to dream a bit more, wanted to try more things, wanted to learn about so many more things. I wrote a lot more too - even though some of it was real rubbish! I guess that is why so many people reminisce about their childhoods and why people write about it in the books and movies. 

In this photo, we were visiting a university and feeling excited for the next year. It would be a new experience and environment - leaving high school and entering university. Even though this was only about 4-5 years ago (not very long), I do feel that this past version of myself was very naïve and still believed in a lot of ideas I had learned from fiction - not yet exposed to the true revelations of what it means when you leave school - not even thinking about that in fact...

There's a lot of things I want this blog to be:

• A regular diary
• A place for my fictional works
• A training ground to improve my writing 
• A place for commentary around my personal beliefs, opinions, observations 

etc.

Of course I imagine a lot of great things in my head.

BUT - as I find I am often way too idealistic when it comes to baby projects such as these - 

I will attempt to work on this slowly but incrementally.. Until one day I can stand back and feel proud, and be proud of my attempts. // end